Many have said I made the right choice
Then they fall silent
Many people have said I’ve made the right choices
Yet my heart swells with regrets
My blood stream is filled with the emotions my heart pumps
I’m taken over, it’s won
If you’re all so certain I’ve done the right things
Why is it that your voices so quickly fade away?
A polite thing to say
Truth is all that will help me now
My brain fights off my heart
Logic says I regret nothing
When my heart feels overwhelmingly lonely
That’s when it starts to feel something
Maybe I miss those who’ve done me wrong
Maybe I miss who I thought they were
Or could be
Maybe I miss the people who were once close to me
Maybe I wish they’d learned their lessons before they met me
The regret I feel sometimes
Comes straight from the empty parts of my heart
Shoots down my spine
Spoils my blood
I start to cry
I’m so hurt
You could say I’m a thousand tiny pieces
When really I’m reinforced steel
To break apart would be liberating
Yet the walls inside me refuse to shake
You all tell me I’ve made the right decisions
Is that just how you wish to see me in your visions?
Every choice I’ve made has put me in an exponentially difficult place
How could that be correct?
Am I building more character?
Or am I walking towards the cliffs edge?